Sunday, July 20, 2008

My Life as a Grad Student

I have noticed that the past few blogs have been about baking, which I find fascinating because I didn't realize I had time for baking, or for arranging flowers. I have finished a baby quilt as well which goes to show you that you can and will fit pleasure into your life even when you are incredibly busy.

A couple of years ago I got a postcard in my mailbox at school about a new graduate program at BYU. It was not addressed to me, so I don't know who put it in my box. The program was a Masters in Media Education. I had been teaching media literacy for a couple of years without having taken a class in media, so I was very interested. I went through the application process and got accepted last February. The program started in August and it has been one of the hardest things I have done. Here are the hard things:
  • I have had to write more papers than I care to imagine! I also found out that I am not such a great writer. This has been a bitter pill to swallow since I teach a college writing class. Each one of my papers were a labor, really. It was like giving birth! I felt like I opened my brain and poured out everything I had in it and when it was done, I flapped my lips like an idiot!
  • I realized that I'm not as smart as I thought I was. Compared to most people, I felt like I was in the top 80%. But the competition is tough in grad school. I realized that the members of my cohort could think much deeper than I could. It was a humbling experience, but made me think deeper and broader.
  • I have never read so much non-fiction in my life. Granted, most of the reading was pretty interesting, but some of it was a stretch to apply in my life outside this particular class. That doesn't give you much motivation. With all the reading and the writing i have had to do, I have never sat on my butt for so long in my life. Sometimes I feel that my brain will explode or shut down because of some critical error.
  • My life revolves around BYU. It's practically all I think about and all I talk about. I feel sorry for my family who patiently listens to me complain and explain about school.


Logan said...

You impress me. As much as I wanted to major in English, I really don't think I could've written so many papers without going crazy! I love literature, but for some reason I feel that if I had gone to school for it I would have lost that love in all of the work surrounding it. Is that weird?

Melanie said...

Sister, you are doing such an awesome job of "doing it all"...keep the faith and the energy to accomplish your goal! Love yal